Day 19: Amsterdam
Wow, yesterday was a blur. Let's see... we left
Nana's house and travelled for a few hours to a cheese and clog
demo outside of Amsterdam. Not too interesting... I mean cmon...
who the hell's gonna buy a pair of clogs? We only spent like
a half an hour there, so it wasn't too bad, and we also got
in a little bit of hackey sacking. The
last time we would do so as a group :( Then,
it was off to BIKE A DIJK! Pronounced
BIKE A DIKE! I want to ride my bicycle,
I want to ride my bike. Amsterdam is really really nice... I
mean, when you think of Holland, it's all about the sex and
the pot right? Well there's more to it all... there's the bikes,
the nice little houses, the canals, and the sex and the pot
:) Biking was fun, a lot less strenuous than Hopfgarten, but
just as scenic. I don't think Aaron fell off his bike this time
:) I want a goat as a pet! After our bike ride, we met up with
Jacko and the coach again, and set off for the diamond demo.
Kind of pointless really, I mean, who the heck would buy diamonds
on vacation. Whoops, spoke too soon, Ray and Christie got some,
or rather, a lot, and Chauntel got a nice watch. Everything
else was just way too pricey for us kids. Suggestion
for others: if you don't plan on getting diamonds/watches, exit
the store, and there are plenty of lil souvenir shops just outside.
Be the first in your group to get an Amsterdam jumper :) Palm
trees and rainbows, we got our first whiff of pot stepping outside
of the diamond shop, and we also almost got ran over too. Watch
out for those bike lanes, they're killer here. After jumping
back on the bus and spending a good hour in rush hour traffic
(it was in town though, so we got to see
lots) we reached our hostel where I roomed
with the bros, and Canadian Steve. Dinner was decent, salad
and turkey, kind of reminded me of elementary school food, where
you sit at big long benched tables and get that subpar food.
After dinner... SEX SHOW! It sucked. That was one of the most
uncomfortable things I've ever done... and the girls weren't
even cute. It all got old really quick, and so I turned my attention
to watching others (Not naming names LAUREN
JENNY AND RYAN) stare intently at what was going on.
Good laughs :) 22 euros on the show, better spent elsewhere.
Beware of squirting elephants and gorillas. Walking down the
main drag of the red light district was interesting, I honestly
didn't know what to think, so I didn't :) But overall, it felt
dirty, and it wasn't all that it was hyped up to be. But like
I said, there's a lot more to Amsterdam than sex and pot :)
Taking the tram back to the hostel, everyone ended up back in
the last chance bar. So Smokey! Lots of drinking for me... 8
shots with Danny (it was his bday, and he almost never drinks)
a couple of beers, and like 6 breezers... I didn't get a buzz
for a long time, and when I did, it wore off crazy quick. Stace
had a bunch to drink too... All of this drinking is all getting
really old really quick.
Honestly, I didn't really
have too much fun last night, I was doing way too much thinking.
I guess that's why I was trying to get trashed, but I guess
my tolerance has either gone way up, or Amsterdam alcohol is
crazy weak. I realized last night, that I've definitely fallen
for Stacey. So why was I so glum? Cause I also got my first
glimpse of all the doubt and uncertainty that was to ensue if
I pursued a relationship with her. Heh, we were dancing... and
I lost her in the crowd for a bit (after we both had a bunch
of beers and shots) only to find her over by Judy smoking. EVIL
JUDY! Corrupting my Stacey :( I know,
I know... big fuckin deal right? So she's experimenting, having
a bit of fun... but why the hell was it bothering me so much?
I mean, she didn't like it at all, and people make mistakes,
but I think it was more about me not being around to watch after
her in a few days. Right now, I'm definitely too emotionally
involved with her, I let my guard down too much, and look where
I got myself. I honestly don't see how any of this could lead
to any good. I definitely started withdrawing from her last
night, damn she was so beautiful, she got all dolled up for
the show, and smelled so good... but I was just too scared of
getting close. I WANT HER SO BAD, but I'm scared of the aftermath.
What happens when I leave for home, when this Holiday of a Lifetime
is all over? I know, I should live in the moment, and just have
fun, but today is the last day/night of the tour, and if there
was a time to start thinking about the future, it's now right?
In a few days, I'll wake up, and not be able to see her beautiful
smile, or her amazing eyes, I won't be able to smell her hair,
or tickle her knees... so what the hell's the point? I've been
there, done that with the whole long distance thing, I just
don't know if I want to do it again. She kept asking me what
was wrong last night... and I kept choking out "nothing,"
but she knew me better, and called me on it. I'm such a bad
liar. Walking her up the stairs (not even
too her room, shame on you Henry!) I told
her that I would tell her about what I was bugging me tomorrow (today)...
I hope she doesn't bring up the subject. I just don't know what
to say to her. I just don't know what to do... and there's really
no one here for me to talk to, I guess I fly solo on this one.
Today's the last day of
the tour... and I feel like crap.
Day 19 Photos
